|| a new heαrt ||

It kinda hurts.
Why do I cry so much?
Those words stung, they hurt me.
My smile is fake.
I look into your eyes, and I cant love you again.

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But He looks down on this little girl.  The one who is crying, the one who can't smile like she did before.  "Noelle, it's for a reason" He says to me.
"Don't forget I am here for you, and have been all along"

I close my eyes.  It's like everything just stops.  I just say that name.  "Jesus". I talk to Him.  And a cool breeze rushes over me as the last tear falls from my eyes, the tear that He dries with his assurance that He is there for me.  I am afraid to open my eyes again, and face the life that I know.  But I take a quick peek, and feel Him urging me to do it.  And so, I do.  I smile ツ

It's in that moment, that what part of my life that once seemed dark and dismal, it starts to shine.  He covers that hurt with love, because I know it's God's own plan for my life!  I just lay there under the stars, not fully understanding why.  Why did He do that for me?  When I had broken his heart so many times, yet He saw my broken heart, and He healed it.  Like He was replacing it with a fully new one.  The one He had wanted me to have. The one that was whole and beating again! I suddenly leave behind that hurt, and realize how blessed I am.  And how much I really have! 

The dusty cover of that book that I hadn't opened for so long, it glitters.  I open it, and I read:

 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.- Romans 8:28

pur·pose

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the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.

 

That's why you exist, darling! Because you have purpose!

That heartache can be healed.

That smile can be mended, and be made real!

That love for God can grow stronger!

Don't ever forget that!

 

And I am telling you this, because it happened to me, and what did I learn from it?  Only that God really does love me! ♡  That He really can heal my broken heart!  He is so much greater than whatever may have hurt you before.

 

 

 

 

"It's like I'm seeing for the first time
 like You opened my eyes to show me
 everything I've missed before"

 

 

 

This is such a beautiful song ^^ ❥❥❥

 

                                                                   Noelle:)