|| a new heαrt ||

It kinda hurts.
Why do I cry so much?
Those words stung, they hurt me.
My smile is fake.
I look into your eyes, and I cant love you again.

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But He looks down on this little girl.  The one who is crying, the one who can't smile like she did before.  "Noelle, it's for a reason" He says to me.
"Don't forget I am here for you, and have been all along"



I close my eyes.  It's like everything just stops.  I just say that name.  "Jesus". I talk to Him.  And a cool breeze rushes over me as the last tear falls from my eyes, the tear that He dries with his assurance that He is there for me.  I am afraid to open my eyes again, and face the life that I know.  But I take a quick peek, and feel Him urging me to do it.  And so, I do.  I smile ツ

It's in that moment, that what part of my life that once seemed dark and dismal, it starts to shine.  He covers that hurt with love, because I know it's God's own plan for my life!  I just lay there under the stars, not fully understanding why.  Why did He do that for me?  When I had broken his heart so many times, yet He saw my broken heart, and He healed it.  Like He was replacing it with a fully new one.  The one He had wanted me to have. The one that was whole and beating again! I suddenly leave behind that hurt, and realize how blessed I am.  And how much I really have! 

The dusty cover of that book that I hadn't opened for so long, it glitters.  I open it, and I read:

 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.- Romans 8:28

pur·pose

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the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.
 
That's why you exist, darling! Because you have purpose!
That heartache can be healed.
That smile can be mended, and be made real!
That love for God can grow stronger!
Don't ever forget that!
 
And I am telling you this, because it happened to me, and what did I learn from it?  Only that God really does love me! ♡  That He really can heal my broken heart!  He is so much greater than whatever may have hurt you before.
 
 
 
 
"It's like I'm seeing for the first time
 like You opened my eyes to show me
 everything I've missed before"
 
 
 
This is such a beautiful song ^^ ❥❥❥
 
                                                                   Noelle:)
 
 
 

22 comments:

  1. LOVE this Noelle! I needed it too :)) You are such a GREAT writer!! hehe

    -Danielle

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  2. Oh my gosh...Noelle darling you are just so amazing. This is just so beautiful.

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    1. Thank you, dear! <3 You're so sweet! Love you! XOXO

      Noelle:)

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  3. Oh my Noelle, you are sooooo amazing, like words can't describe you talent! Thanks for always writing such inspiring and encouraging posts when I need them the most! Keep doing what your doing dear!
    Brooke Jordan

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    1. Oh my word! Thank you, Brooke :D Your comment like literally made my day 100,000,000% better! I love you, dear, and thank YOU for always reading them! <3

      Noelle:)

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  4. This is amazing!! Love it! God is good! He always knows what he is doing! Amen! Keep writing Noelle! We have an awesome God!

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    1. Thanks, Annie <3 God is soooo good! And yes, what an awesome God we have!! :D

      Noelle:)

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  5. Beautiful post...I know the feeling of God mending my broken heart all to well. And no matter how many times I fall, He helps me up again. It's amazing. And He fulls me with new energy and love every time.
    I love that song as well.
    Tane ♥

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    1. Thanks, Tane <3 I love hearing everything you had to sayyy! And yes, that is so true :) God is so loving and gracious! Me too!! Britt Nicole always has such beautiful songs!

      Noelle:)

      P.s. yes! My username is: sonshinegal12

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  6. Hello Noelle! :)

    You commented on my blog, asking if I could make you a signature. To officially order, visit my design page (www.rosey-red-blogdesigns.blogspot.com), or just shoot me an email at rosecolflesh@gmail.com. :)

    xoxo,
    Rose

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    1. Thanks so much, Rose! I filled out an order form on your design website! :) Thanks so much for letting me know!! I look forward to seeing what you can put together, I am sure it will be nothing but absolutely lovely! <3 XOXO

      Noelle:)

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  7. PPS: What is the name of the font that you have as your post content?

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    1. It's actually just called "Times New Roman" !! hehe

      Noelle:)

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  9. But what about the one you write posts with? Your custom font? :)

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    1. The one I write my posts with, or the one that I use for the titles of my posts? :P

      Noelle:)

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    2. The one that you write your posts with...it's different to the font that is used for the comments. :) Thank you so much for helping me...
      Tane ♥

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    3. Well, I just have one page text set...which is times new roman, I don't think it's any different :P I am so sorry for the confusion! I will double check though, and let you know if I find out otherwise!!

      Noelle:)

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  10. hey girl! do you do guest posts? i would love it if you would guest post on my blog! can i contact you through email/twitter about this? (:

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    1. Heyyyy heyyy heyyy!
      Oh my gosh! I would be honored to be able to guest post on your beautiful blog <3 Thanks for asking!! My twitter is:
      Ellemarie_93
      or my e-mail is:
      sonshinegal1@gmail.com

      Either one! :)

      Noelle:)

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Thx 4 ur sweet messages! I'd love to hear from u -

Noelle : )